When I'm out of my elements. When the winds of change and consequence force me to rear my ugly head and say, "I've had enough." When I try to vent it out, but the burn of the cold cuts through my mouth, then I know that I don't know a thing of letting come what may. So I define the growing pains of facing self-deprecation. Unchecked and enabled by my fears and frustrations. If this message is true, I'm not strong enough to carry these bags. I've made mistakes, but I believed in myself. No lessons to learn, stay in your lane. "Do you believe in yourself? Because you shouldn't believe in yourself."
I don't need my elements. Let the world put its weight on my chest, and I'll find a way to breathe. You won't make an example of me. I know the growing pains of self-deprecation, and that they give way to sheer determination. Let this message be known you can't keep me (down). I'll carry these bags. I've made mistakes, but I believe in myself. No one can take these bags away. I believed in myself. The lanes, painted black and white, fade to grey. I believed in myself. I still believe, and you can't take that from me.
credits
from Shrug Dealer (2021 Remaster),
released March 19, 2021
Written and performed by Shrug Dealer.
Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by Russ Worstell of Big Feet Sounds
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